LemOn teA

Friday, April 08, 2005

did not sleep well last night.. was very very very angry wif my father laa.. since p5.. i have been tolerating all his nonsense and lies.. i may complain a little, but in the end.. i will also listen to him de lorz..
u said u can always give me the money to buy clothes etc wif my friends if i felt more comfortable..bt c wad happens when i said i wanted to buy a bag wif my friends..? u scolded me.. and if i tell you to bring me out to buy 1..? u will nag and say i am troublesome.. u said " last week was ky mum's birthday.. this week was buying a bag.. i shall c wad next week's excuse will be.. i don't care whOsE bLOODY birthday is it.. i don't want you to go out" u may say that in anger.. and maybe u didn't mean it.. bt honestly speaking.. i was very sad and angry when i heard that lo..and yet.. u scolded me infront of the relatives.. i didn't want to be rude to u.. so i waited for them to go off b4 i reasoned wif u.. hah. in the end.. u kept quiet after listening to me.. i can tell that u were guilty for blaming the wrong person.. bt u refused to admit it.. besides, u changed the topic and continued nagging abt my other faults..
u said i only treated u as an ATM.. only finding u when i needed money.. neva sharing my problems wif u.. bt first of all.. who is the one who is always busy wif other things.. nv showing concern for me? u nv seemed to be approachable ya..?sometimes.. i really don't understand wad the adults r thinking sia.. can't they juz live a simple life..? y muz they make things turn so complicated and make themselves feel so stressed up? maybe i am wrong to blame and scold my dad like that.. ya..i am feeling guilty already.. =s.. bt he haf never treated me like a young adult.. always go thinking that i am still small.. haix.. nvm.. i believe in a few months time.. i will be neglected already.. i am already used to it anyway..

~~LemOn teA~~ ^___~ _{3:53 PM}